I Was Used toComplicated Love…So I Thought Neglect Was Normal

He is annoying.

Let me start there, because I feel like that explains everything.

He is dramatic, slightly extra, and somehow always has something to say… even when nothing needs to be said.

And still…

he is my favorite person.

I do not know when it happened.
There was no big moment.
No sudden realization.
No dramatic “I am in love.
It just quietly grew between normal conversations, random jokes, and the kind of comfort you do not notice at first… until you do.
He feels like a mirror.

Not in a deep, poetic way.

Just in the simplest way possible.

I say something, and he understands.
I get quiet, and he notices.
I react, and he does not make it worse.

There is no explaining everything again and again.

Somehow, things just… make sense.

He remembers the smallest things I say.

The kind of things even I forget I mentioned.

And then he brings them up later so casually, like they mattered.

And I always sit there thinking:

“Why does this feel so nice?”

We annoy each other a lot.

Like genuinely.

He says something stupid.
I react.
He laughs.
I get more annoyed.

And somehow it ends with both of us laughing, not even remembering what the problem was.

It feels less like something serious…

and more like two people who are just very comfortable around each other.

And I think that is what surprised me the most.

There is no heaviness.

No constant overthinking.
No trying to understand hidden meanings.
No feeling like I have to prove anything.

Everything just feels… easy.

Not perfect.

Just easy.

Sometimes I still pause and wonder if I am overthinking it.

Because I am used to love feeling complicated.

Something you have to figure out.
Something you have to fix.

But this…

does not feel like that.

I do not feel like I have to try so hard.

I do not feel like I am being misunderstood.

I do not feel like I am asking for too much.

And maybe that is what this is.

Not something intense.

Not something confusing.

Just…

someone who feels familiar
in a way I cannot really explain.

He is annoying.

He is a little dramatic.

And somehow…

he still feels like the calmest part of my day.

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